I'm back!

Well, the last three years have been rough and I haven't really been online, but now I'm back! I was thinking about creating a completely new blog ,but for now I'll just stick with this one

. I'll probably post more than just depressing poetry and actually post something that is worth someone's thoughts. I've changed a lot since I left, some changes for the better and some, well, aren't that great.

Complications

I’m crying as I write this, tears of pain inside.
I can’t hold it in anymore where these thoughts reside.
I wish things weren’t so complicated, that I wasn’t so young
Things would be so easier, yet death has almost won.
I can’t stand this anymore, the distance is too much.
I’m dying inside, I imagine your soft touch
Although you have helped a lot it isn’t enough
I feel this attempt will indeed be very tough
Deep inside I hope my plan will not succeed
The thought of death is growing like a common weed
The past few days have been very painful
And I know that suicide is sinful
I’ve been going insane
It’s been the main thing in my brain
I feel a new pain ripping through me now.
Ill probably live through this I just don’t know how

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I'm going insane in this sphere of mine
If everyone just left me alone id be just fine.
One of The things that I fear has come and gone
But yet I feel the worst is still to come.
Some people may say I'm fake or I'm dumb
Well they say what They want but their words make me feel numb
Just Leave me alone. It's simply better that way.
Maybe some day, I'll come out of this shell I have made 

Don't feel the pain....

Death seems so Lovely at times
When things don't click, when things won't rhyme
Sometimes I feel like Im on a hard climb.

Will it really come to this
Sometimes I tell you I'm so pissed
Well you don't even give a shit

All my friends have come and gone.
It seems I've been a failure all along.
I try and replace them listenin to some songs.

It never works.
Sometimes I just feel like going berserk
Seems like everyones a jerk.

If I die it seems no one will care
Theyd probably pull the trigger on me to win a dare
My life just isn't that fair.